Sunday, May 29, 2011

Day 15- Put your ipod on Shuffle and list the first 10 songs that play

Currently, I can't actually find my ipod (I think I left it at work, which is annoying since I took this whole week off and sure as heck don't want to go there to get it...), so I'm using my itunes account. I'm sure this won't throw the results off :)

1. "Everybody's Changing- Keane: Hopes and Fears
2. "Not Alone"- Sara Bareilles: Kaleidoscope Heart
3. "Crowing"- Toad the Wet Sprocket: Dulcinea
4. "Everything I Do"- Bryan Adams: a mix CD I got from my SIL who got it from a friend...she named it Wonderful, Splendid Love Songs
5. "Encore 1- Speeches/Do You Hear the People Sing"- 10th Anniversary edition soundtrack of Les Miserables
6. "Sure Thing Falling"- Yellowcard: Lights and Sounds
7. "I Swear"- John Michael Montgomery: from a cd mix my sister made me right before I got married that she named Lisa's Country Serenades
8. "Through the Dark"- KT Tunstall: Eye To the Telescope
9. "Enchanted"- Taylor Swift: Speak Now
10. "Someone You Used to Know"- Collin Raye: 16 Biggest Hits

There you go. I like variety :) Also, if you didn't understand my attempt at organization, the part that's in quotes is the name of the song, and the part that is italicized is the name of the album that the song is from...The end :)

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Day 14- An Amusement Park that You Would Burn to Ruins.

I can count on one hand how many amusement parks that I've been to. They all happened while I was in high school, and every time, I had an AWESOME time. Why the heck would you want to burn an amusement park down?

So, while I can't tell you one that I'd burn to the ground, I'll just list the one's I've been to.

1. Disneyland (Sophmore year on my choir tour)

2.Great America (Junior year on choir tour)

3. Castle's N' Coasters (on a group date with James Manning, JD Bradshaw and Tori Harris, and another couple I can't think of in the summer...I can't remember if it was after junior or Senior year)

I think that's it. I don't really count Sunsplash as an amusement park, but I have been there a handful of times...maybe 3 or 4? SO, if you were to count that, I suppose I'd have to use 2 hands....

Friday, May 27, 2011

Day 12 and 13

Yesterday was kinda crazy and busy, what with working and then my baby sister graduating from high school, so I missed the post I was supposed to do yesterday. So, to make it up, I'll do two today.

Day 12: Pet Peeve

I have many pet peeves...particularly at work. I'll only single out one, however...otherwise this would be a very loooooooooooong post. One of my biggest pet peeves has to do with puntcuality. I am, by nature, a very time-cautious person. I am on time to events and things 99% of the time. Sometimes me getting to places on time requires me to plan ahead and start getting ready for something 2 hours early...whatever it takes. I also start to get anxiety if I (or we, meaning Jared and I) are running behind the schedule I made up in my mind (and Jared knew nothing about). It's pretty bad, actually. Now, I have lightened up a bit, and I don't feel so bad being a few minutes late to certain things. But, my BIGGEST problem is when we make plans with some friends and they don't give us the same courtesy that we provide them (ie: calling when we're going to be late). I understand being 5-10 minutes late to dinner or whatever else we'd planned. But, when when people are like 20-30 min late with no sort of thought, it's irritating. Ohh! It also really bugs me when my coworkers mosey into work 10-15 min late consistently and think that it's ok. It's a JOB people! It requires RESPONSIBILITY! and ACCOUNTABILITY!
ok. Off my soap box. Sorry...I get a little crazy about that stuff!

Day 13- a Letter to a Person Who Has Hurt You Recently

Dear person,
I feel like since our relationship started, almost 3 years ago, that you've never cared much for me. I'm not sure what I've done to upset you or make you dislike me, but I'm sorry for whatever it is. I'm deeply sorry if you feel like I've over-stepped my bounds in some way or if you feel like I'm just trying to "replace" you in some way. To be honest, while I think the way you do some things is a little more difficult than it needs to be, I sure as heck don't want to replace you. I don't WANT to be in the situation that I'm in now, so why would I want to take on more? I also really feel that because you've never cared much for me, you grossly underestimate me and my abilities. I wasn't trying to control what C was doing or how she was doing it. She looked overwhelmed, and I had some time, so I did what any decent person would do and offered to help. For you to basically tell me that I'm only valuable in sticking to doing what I'm most experienced in is crap. I'm an excellent listener/observer and could really probably help out and be an asset in ANY capacity. Also, I'm very honest with myself when it comes to time management and my limits, and you've known me long enough that you should know that. If I'm offering to help someone, it's BECAUSE I'm in a situation that I CAN. I really wish that you would just trust me. I'm excellent at what I do, and the way you've treated me, almost since day 1 has been unwarranted. I know I'm not perfect. I'm perfectly aware of my shortcomings, and while I'm fine taking criticism, I refuse to own up to something that is unfair and untrue. If you paid more attention to everything else that you're supposed to, rather than focusing on waiting for me to screw up, everything surrounding our situation would probably be more favorable. Just be happy, Ok? You're life and everyone else's life around you will be better



Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Day 11- out of anyone in the world, who would you put in shark-infested waters

Clearly I'm not a very vindictive person because I can't think of anybody that I would wish death upon....I mean, can you honestly say that you've ever been so angry or hateful to someone that you've honestly wished death on them? I mean, I can get just as mad as the next person, but really? It makes me think of Nephi in the Book of Mormon...I mean how many times did Laman and Lemuel, his own brothers, try to off him? How much hate do you have to have in your heart to justify that? I much of a hold on you does Satan have to have? Man...I just don't have that in me!

However, there are people in history that DESERVE to die...So, for the sake of this question, I'll name:
Adolf Hitler. Or anyone else who thinks genocide is ok...or anyone who thinks mass murder, or really murder of any kind, is ok just because someone is different. I think men like Hitler have a special place in Hell reserved for them.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

I'm not an the kind of person that listens to music based on my emotions. I've found that if I listen to angry music when I'm angry, then I just STAY angry longer. So, I whatever emotion I'm feeling, I listen to pretty much the same stuff. Right now, my ALL-TIME favorite singer is Sara Bareilles. Particularly this album:
This Album has been consistently playing in my car for MONTHS because I never get tired of hearing it. I know every song by heart...and Taylor knows a lot of them too! (It's really cute to hear her sing along with the songs! She gets most of the words right!)
Since my EVMCO concert last weekend with Collin Raye, my love for his music as been renewed in me. I also love Ingrid Michaelson, Brandi Carlile, Jason Mraz, etc. BAsically, any music that is more focused on the lyrics than the instruments.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Day 09-Something That Ticked You Off that Shouldn't Have Ticked You Off

This one is kinda funny....When I was pregnant with Tati, I was really hormonal in the way that it was really easy to make me cry. This pregnancy, my horomones have turned against me in the form of rage. EVERYTHING ticks me off that shouldn't. It's very frustrating because I don't LIKE to be angry. This particularly happens to me at work. I'm not a very "Type A" person, but I get really close when I'm at work. So, that on top of my tendencies lately for anger make work the very opposite of my "happy place."
Other things that tick my off that shouldn't:
-stupid drivers
-the hubby's comments about most stupid drivers being women
-being late
-being told I'm wrong when I'm CLEARLY not :)
-having the TV on ALL the time
-not having enough space for everything
-having a messy room
-females on a power trip (men on a power trip are so much less annoying..why is that??)

I could go on and on. See? EVERYTHING ticks me off! I love being pregnant (literally), but this one is definitely taking an emotional toll on me! My poor family!

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Day 08- Awkward Obsessions

ummmmmmmmmmmmm....I'm not really an obsessive personality? I'm kinda having ahard time with this one. I guess I"m kinda obsessed with TV...but I feel like that's more of an addiction than an obsession. Recently, I was really addicted (or obsessed, I guess) with:
Awkward because it's actually a rather trashy show. But I got WAY sucked into the story line and drama of it all to be able to give it up. But I did. And, I don't even miss it. However, I didn't give it up until I watched all every episode ever made currently....

Currently, I LOVE this show:

I really love (some) talent-related reality shows. American Idol was a favorite for a while, but the last few years just really haven't done anything for me...I ESPECIALLY can't handle this year. Say what you want about Simon Cowell, but I loved him. While he's harsh, he's usually right in his critiquing. The panel of judges this season aren't even critical! It's very frustrating. Anyway, The Voice is definitely a breath of fresh air! And, I can't wait until So You Think You Can Dance starts back up.

So, I love those shows, but TV in general is a bit of a problem for me...and the wonderful technology of DVR has done nothing but enable my problem. I'm like a TV zombie. There can be a million things I have to get done, but if the TV's on, I'm like a moth to a light and can't stay away. Now, I do have to say that my self control has improved that past few years. For example, I'll turn the TV off if I can't find anything to watch, rather than just pick something and glue myself to it.

Having an addiction (or obsession) with television viewing may not be viewed as "awkward" to some, but I find it frustrating. I LOVE to read, but I can rarely tear myself away from the TV to pick up a book. Also, I could be dead tired, but if there's a show on that I HAVE to watch, I will sacrifice my rest for that dumb show.

I kinda wish I just didn't have a tv...

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Day 07- What was your last dream about?

The last couple of weeks, I have VERY vivid dreams...I credit that to pregnancy. They're so exciting though! Last night, my dream was about something similar to Batman. My father...whose face would switch off from belonging to MIchael Keaton and Richard Burgi (that happens all the time in my dreams...a person is always the same person to me, but their face is often different...) was a retired hero, something like Batman. His biggest enemy had been hunting him for a while though, but my father and I had been doing an excellent job of not being found (I think he'd stopped hunting this bad guy to protect me?). Anyway, we were set up, and my prom date actually ended up being the bad guy's son...and he'd asked me out just so that his dad could come capture us. It was an amazing dream of capture and escape. Seriously. It was kind of trippy in some places, but it was really exciting!

Friday, May 20, 2011

Day 06- celebrity crush and why (supply picture)

Ok. Many of you may not recognize/know my celebrity crush. I think he is so cute:

This is Zachary Levi. Now, I base my "celebrity crushes" solely on what I see on TV. Not what I read about them in the news. I prefer my celebrity crushes to only behave the way they're portrayed on their shows...otherwise, I tend to lose respect for them (like Tom Hanks. I LOVE Tom Hanks and had so much respect for him until I had to hear about all that crap he came out and said about the Church...ruined him for me). So, I don't actually know anything about Zachary Levi other than the fact that he's cute, looks nice with scruff, has a killer smile, and can sing really pretty!
He plays the main character on one of my favorite shows, "Chuck"...he's such a loveable nerd! He also is the voice of Flynn Rider in "Tangled"...and YES! That is his singing voice as well.

Haha! If you were to ask Jared who my celebrity crush was, he'd probably say Patrick Dempsey....which is true, but not all at the same time!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Day 05- A picture of a place you want to travel to

I love to travel, even though I seldom have the opportunity. I haven't been to many place either. But, here are some places just of the top of my head that sound really appealing to me:

any beach:


Boston (I reeeeeeeeeeally want to go back there!!!)

and last but not least (and obviously not realistically), Neverland!

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

I could talk about the "typical" habits I have: biting my nails (it would be nice to have pretty nails), picking at my face (I love popping zits), etc, but I want to talk about a habit that has ailed me my whole life.
Ok. Here it goes. I have a problem with being nosy. Now, I'm not the type to pry for information...I'm very indirect, and almost sneaky of how I gather my information. I just am a really good listener and observer. This serves me well in some instances...back when I was working full time, my co-workers would ask me where a chart was that they couldn't find, and I would ALWAYS have the answer. Or, if there was some problems with a patient, even if I wasn't directly involved, I would always know what was going on, and could fill in the dr's if the MA wasn't available to explain. Also, when I start a new job, I pick up things really fast because my eyes and ear are always open. I guess you could say that I've tried in my later years to use my powers for good. However, when I was younger, my nosy-ness would get the best of me. I was COMPLETELY powerless against the compulsion to read my sisters' (yes, plural...) journals (sorry Amy and Christina). Or to eavesdrop on conversations (my mom used to call me "Big Ears"). I really feel like I lost the trust of some of my loved ones. Even now, if I see someone's cell phone laying around, I really have to fight the temptation to read their texts. That's totally terrible, and I really feel like I've improved over the years, but MAN has it been a battle!

I have a hard time controlling my blabber-mouth sometimes too. Ask my brother..I can't tell you how many bday or christmas presents I spoiled for him because I told him what he was getting (although, in my defense, I was just supplying information that he was ASKING for). In later years, I really have to restrain myself from gossip...especially at work (why are offices so full of juicy drama??!?!). So, I guess I'm a "big mouth" and "big ears"....

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Day 3- The Worst Movie I've Ever Seen

Remember. This is a very subjective question. And it's hard! I'm not usually very picky when it comes to movies. um....Well, I can think of a couple, I guess. Here's one:

I've always hated this movie. Granted, I haven't watched it in YEARS, and it's probably actually really well-done, but I just remember being so annoyed by the music and bored by the plot. Definitely my least favorite Disney movie.
Here's another:

Yes. I know it's rated R. I HAD to watch it for my English 101 class (why? I don't even know). I rebelled and told the teacher that I refused to watch it in class, so I got an edited version to watch and do the assignments. However, it's about the there wasn't much editing. It was actually a really amazing movie, as could be deduced from the number of awards it received...but I've never felt so empty and depressed after a movie before. So, not necessarily the worst movie...but a movie that made me FEEL the worst.
This next one is the worst Harry Potter movie (I HATED this one!...I'll probably get grief for this...):

I guess I don't have much to say about this one except that I hated it. But, it was probably one of my least favorite books of the series as well.
The last one I'll talk about is:

Like I mentioned before, I'm not very picky when it comes to movies, but both Jared and I actually turned this movie off. It wasn't even necessarily for vulgarity (although the dialogue was a little awkward in parts, and Ricky Gervais has a reputation for being gross), but it was BORING. The plot was interesting, but really slow. While the idea was somewhat original, we were just bored!

I don't know. You can all disagree with me on these if you want, but that's what I think :)

Monday, May 16, 2011

Day 02- Why you got a blog

I actually altered this questions. Originally, it was "why you got a tumblr account" because I stole this challenge off of a tumblr account. I don't have a tumbl account, and I don't really even know what tumblr is. Is it like a blog?

Anyway, I digress. I started this blog so that I could keep family and friends up to date with the goings-on in my life. Clearly, I've done an awesome job of that. I'm not sure why I thought I'd actually stick to it. Every journal I've ever started is half-filled. I love to go back and read them, but they are far from complete. Apparently, I have a problem with follow-through when it comes to documenting events. Blach!

Now, on a more personal level, since that was a boring question, I will tell about a couple of amazing compliments I've recieved recently. Not because I want to toot my own horn, but because they made me feel so good and because I want to put them in writing so I can come back to them on days I'm feeling down.

The first one has to do with my employer's family. The Jacksons are amazing, and what I like to describe as an extremely good looking family. Seriously. All of them are absolutely stunning. But not only that. The Jackson kids that I've had the opportunity to work with are some of the most humble, gracious people that I've ever met. They're very non-judgemental and unassuming. JC (my boss), has a heart of gold. Lyn (his wife), is one of the most positive-thinking people I've ever met. Even on one of her stressed days, I feel uplifted just being around her. So, what does this family have to do with the compliment I've received? Well, a couple of people have asked if I WAS a Jackson. Now, realistically, I know it has more to do with my similar coloring and build than anything else, but someone simply putting me in the same category as this family made me so flabbergasted. It was awesome.

The second compliment will be described very vaguely, just in case people know the individuals I'm talking about (I don't want to hurt feelings). So, I was talking to an adult that I really look up to and was letting her know some insecurities that I have about a responsibilty I have (sorry so vague). She let me know that she never would have guessed that..that I always present myself in front of the group very well. Then she told me that there is one person in particular, who can sometimes be difficult, that she thinks I "handle" particularly well. I started laughing and told her that I always feel like my face betrays the frustration that I feel towards that particular person, but she said that my facial expressions never betray me, and that I always manage to word things in such a way as to get back on track with what I need to get done, all while managing not to offend anyone. That was such a relief to me and really boosted my confidence in the responsibilites that I've been asked to fulfill. Apparently, I'm a much better actress than I think I am!

I will close with a random picture, courtesy of Google Images, to spruce up this post a little bit:

Happy Monday everyone!

Sunday, May 15, 2011


A few days ago, my SIL brought a dog home from work. She said it was to help find a home for it (one of her managers had found it around their house back in january and was trying to get rid of it), but really I think she just wants to keep it. We're not positive what kind of dog she is, but she's really actually pretty sweet and well behaved. I'm not much for animals, but Shadow (that's what she's been named) is pretty ok. And she's good with Taylor.
. Her only downside is that she's not great and minding. I think that will imporove once she's gotten used to us, but really. You open the kitchen gate and she SHOOT out of it...and she's FAST! Anyway, so my SIL went to Petsmart and bought a little doggie discipline clicker thingy:
. It's worked pretty well so far.
Well, this morning, Taylor was demonstrating how incredibly observant and smart she is. My SIL went into the kitchen, but didn't close the gate all the way. For her, that's ok. Shadow sticks to her like, well, a shadow. So, while Shadow wasn't showing any signs of bolting, Taylor ran to the kitchen gate and closed it. Then, she ran and got the clicker and said "No Shadow" and clicked it. IT was so cute. And, since I knew that Taylor understood what the clicker was for, I thought I would try a little experiment. Taylor started acting up about 10 min later, so I grabbed the clicker, clicked it, and said "No Taylor." She responded by glaring at me. I'd set the clicker down...Jared picked it up and told me I probably shouldn't use it on her. Taylor responded to THAT by snatching the clicker from his hands, pointing it at me, clicking it and saying "No Mommy" in her most authoritative voice. Jared and I cracked up. I guess I got told!

***I probably should mention that the clicker is totally harmless. The only thing it does is make a metallic sound, similar, but much louder and stronger, to clicking the lid of a jar of jelly...just wanted to clarify that I'm not torturing my child :)

Day 1- 15 interesting facts about ME

This is going to be hard. I really don't feel like I have anything interesting about I'm just going to list some random facts...I'll let you be the judge of whether or not they are interesting.

1. I have never broken a bone, had strep throat, had an ear infection, or a cavity. Basically, I'm the picture of health. ha. Not really

2. I had multiple imaginary friends as a child. Some of their names were Mike Schmidt and Como

3. Because our house was so small when I was growing up, I spent a couple of years with the kitchen as my bedroom. My underwear drawer was the stand that our microwave sat on.

4. I am the seventh child of for all you trekky's, that makes me "Seven of Nine"

5. I love to read...however, I made a promise to the hubby that I'd read the LOrd of the Rings trilogy before I read any other's been almost a year since I've read anything else because it's taken me so long to get through them! I'm currently half-way through the 2nd one. Oh geez.

6.I used to bite my toenails. Like a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time ago. Stop judging me.

7. I have had a steady income since I was 14...of course when I was 14 it was very little, but still. I have an excellent employment history :)

8. Jared and I knew/dated eachother for a month before we got engaged.

9. Until I lived with my in-laws, I always sang when I was in the bathroom...whether it was to shower or just to USE the bathroom. I'm a little bit self-conscious...that's why I stopped when we moved in with the Paynes.

10. I love all kinds of music, except for rap, heavy metal, and most r&b.

11. I know ever song from Les Miserables by heart, but I've never seen the performance. But, that will change as of June 11!!!

12. Before I met got married, I'd only been out of state 4 times...I'm pretty sure that's doubled since I got married.

13. All through school/college, I had very few female friends. I got along with guys much easier....I guess being a huge flirt didn't hurt either.

14. I do not have any love or attachment to animals or pets of any kind. Although, I did love my SIL's Jack Russel more than I've ever loved an animal. Hugo was awesome, although he shed a ton and his fur was really was like stepping on pins!

15. I've been able to sing on the stage at Gammage at least 3 times....I can't remember if it's been more than that.

welp. That's all. Maybe you've learned something about me, and maybe you've just determined that I'm not interesting at all :)

Saturday, May 14, 2011


In addition to my last post, I realize that while I did announce that I was pregnant some time ago, I neglected to post about what I'm having! For those of you who don't already know............. IT'S A GIRL!!!! That's right. According to my friend Josh, my husband is a "ladies man." I'm THRILLED to have another little girl! Taylor gets to have a little friend to play with that she can dress up like a doll (and I'm pretty sure she will...). Anyway, her name will be Abby (NOT Abigail) Something Payne. We haven't quite decided on a middle name yet, but we're leaning towards Rose. So, maybe Abby Rose Payne? WE'll see.
She's due to make an appearance on October 6, but I have to have a c-section (darn my "deformed pelvic outlet"), and Dr. Beck says he delivers c-sections a week early. So looks like I'll have another bundle of joy at the end of September! AWESOME!!!!


It's no secret that I don't blog very regularly. I have several things I can use as excuses. First of all, I don't have a camera. By that, I mean between Jared and I, we actually have 2 cameras (but they were for his company...I don't know where the small one is...), and we both have Ipod/iphone. I'm just retarded and don't know how to download pictures to the computer. So, I just tell people I don't have a camera. And really, who wants to read this blog and NOT see pictures of my sweet little girl. I'm pretty sure that's the majority of the reason people (if any, anymore) read this. Second of all, I don't feel like I have anything worth blogging about. My life is pretty routine. Get up. Go to work. Come home. Make dinner. Go to bed. With the playing/taking care of Taylor in between all of those. I lead a very exciting life. Third and most importantly, I lack motivation. I am soooooooooooo LAZY. Mmm...lazy is probably the wrong word...but when I'm pregnant, my vocabulary disappears.


I really have had the desire recently to be better about documenting my life and the hijinks (that one's for you Jared) of my hilarious two- year old. So. To get me used to blogging and to get me thinking, I'm going to jump on the bandwagon and do a "challenge." I don't think this is one that I've seen others do, but similar to some. Here's the list:

Day 01- 15 interesting facts about your life so far
Day 02- Why you got a blog
Day 03- Worst movie you ever saw
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you want to travel to
Day 06- celebrity crush and why (supply picture)
Day 07- what was your last dream about
Day 08- akward obsessions
Day 09- something that pissed you off, that normally shouldn’t piss you off
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- out of anyone in the world, who would you put in shark-infested waters
Day 12- pet peeve
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- one amusement park that you would burn to ruins
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- current wish list
Day 29- who are you?
Day 30- Is this the Krusty Krab?

I don't really understand day 30's question...but I'm determined to follow this through. I can't guarantee that I'll post every day, but I'll get all the posts done! Hooray for determination!
and, just for kicks, here's something Google images showed me for the word "determination"